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[razorsadness]

EPISODE TWO KURT’S BRAIN - INTERIOR

Kurt’s obsession with fashion went back a long way. It was part of a more general appreciation of beautiful and material things, which he’d had since he was a child.

Kurt suspected that this early aesthetic education was responsible for the direction of his own tastes. Things were beautiful to him in inverse proportion to their accessibility: a logic which struck him as childish for its fetishisation of impotence. But the 90s were about not growing up. The pages of the music and celebrity magazines that didn’t have Kurt’s face on them were filled with images of manufactured adolescence: teeny bopper twinks dressed in virginal white, A-listers doused with slime in studios resembling kindergartens, and an ageing parade of actors fresh out of high school drag.

He might seem like a kid to an industry obsessed with youth and its prophecies, but he was a grown up with a kid of his own. Even in earlier relationships he’d wanted the house with the picket fence. Tobi Vail used to say it was because of his parents’ divorce; they’d get into screaming arguments about his attachment to what she called the ‘bourgeois and patriarchal trap of success’. Kurt was hurt, but he did agree that he wanted these things as signs that he had made it. Not to the American dream that Vail despised him for, but to some indefinable sense of a future, and this was the only one he could imagine.

Such feelings were deeply unfashionable, and got in the way of the punk recklessness that had first attracted Vail, and which she held at arms’ length, an accessory to complete her image. Not that he minded them not interrogating these desires together. Kurt couldn’t put it more eloquently than this, but it felt both good and bad to dangle from her arm. To be used the way a man might use a beautiful woman. No one had read any Judith Butler yet, so Kurt could only say: Tobi’s riot grrl feminism made him feel like a woman, but it also made him know he wasn’t one. He was part of a group of people who obstructed people like Tobi, who’s desires stood in the way of her liberation. These wants stood for his involvement in patriarchy; women only wanted these things because men wanted them for them.

But Kurt didn’t care, he dreamed of being turned into an image, into an adornment for the grrls, the gyrls, the gworls of the future. He dreamt that his name would become a secret call passed between women in chokers at parties in lofts and warehouses in metropolitan areas of the United States. He dreamt of a teenage starlet gaining fame in a tv show where she wore his dirty bob for an audience too young to remember his music. He dreamt of the expansion of the internet and forums on which users would share photos of him and argue about what he wore and what he said.

He didn’t tell anyone these dreams. Unlike the house and family, these were just for him.

—Francis Whorrall-Campbell, from "[Digital Poetics 4.7] A Fragment on Kurt Cobain’s Transgender Ideas from ‘In Utero’" (The Hythe)

[hotgirltobi]

Oh maybe February has some sketches of Team Gai smooches...

lmk if there's a pairing you want me to check out! I'm aiming for a balance of platonic and romantic because I think Valentine's Day should include platonic love too!

[doodlboy]

Y'all ever suddenly get hit with "oh shit, I forgot I could draw this" like a piano being dropped on your head?

[vihrago-a]

shut the fuck up about Marnie you stupid whore

i love how u sent this literally right after someone asked who they are — all i said was if you want to know who they are, i can tell you 💀 + dont think this is marnie considering i have them blocked but hiiiiiii . how are u bestie? been awhile.

[unexceptional]

OUT. || Does anyone remember the Mandy Moore film How to Deal back in like the early 2000s because I just remembered that film and got emo

[aeons-domain]

found an astarion pfp haver in my notifs and went down their profile to see the bg3 stuff they've rbed, , ,

[waywardted]

And, most importantly, to Richmond.

TED LASSO (2020 - 2023)

[amanitacurses]

How dare you draw such an interesting design for NESLink, and not have more?

Seriously, I'm curious to see more their outfit and how you see their personality. Your art is just so pleasing and so clean and gorgeous! ♥︎

I know this wasn't technically a request, but I'm quite proud of the various designs I've made for NESLink, so I felt like showing them off 😊

[keferon]

Okay I’m. Usually. Usually I don’t enjoy human aus and usually I hate drawing transformers as humans because it feels so wrong to my brain.

But then I stumbled upon Dream of something more by Gemma_Inkyboots and aaauuuhh fuck. Here’s the pile of the most vague and unspecific and undetailed fanart. Because I’m being torn between “I can’t drawing human designs” and “If don’t draw something for this fic I die”.

[fyodorfucks]

happy saturday ! this is your reminder to drink plenty of water <3

[valtsv]

bruises really are kind of fun visually speaking. like ow fuck i walked into a wall :( hoooooly shit my skin is purple

[overthegardenwirtt]

ppl who do not like or at least appreciate loumand are not real toxic yaoi enjoyers I fear

[doodlboy]

3000 rupees for a 2 room house what is this, new york??

[jewelthenerd]

Stupid lmk doodles because why not

( Minor Season 5 Spoilers- like a new character is there )

Feat MK, Ne Zha, Ao Lie, Macaque, The Nine-Headed Demon and Shadowpeach ( because I’m cringy like that )

[deeeens]

his mommy called him handsome!

[yasmeensh]

Seriously, huge applause to OG Link for fighting Lynels at the age of 10. Adding sketch version because I always like the sketch better. I mess up as soon as I start colouring lol.